Saturday, July 24, 2010
Saturday, July 24, 2010
Its been the third day talking to this girl about her situation or maybe its two but I cant really remember, all I can remember is that it was long and hard. Things kept going worse and worse with her. Its not that I didn’t really care about it being long and hard its just that it felt so painful seeing her in this state. It wasn’t like just a little cut from a knife it felt like a stab somewhere vital. It of course didn’t kill me but it made me feel bad that I couldn’t really do anything for her. Hmm she wakes up most of the time always just thinking about the dude and how she has lost so much hope now that he is being a dick to her. Well all guys are dicks but I don’t want to sound homo, some know what to do when they are in love. I guess sometimes the guys take it for advantage and I don’t know, they just do what they want.
Now the first day was horrible. I heard her cry, literally cry her heart out. I tried to calm her down but I guess I did a little bit. Yeah we didn’t really talk much longer so we just talked online I guess. Still she was completely crushed about this kind of situation happening to her. It was bad enough to hear her cry but it was worse to just read her words and how it makes me feel like I cant even do anything to help her. What I wished was to take her for a little walk, but heh her and her parents was just the problem. I didn’t flip a little bit but I guess she was alright later. She did things like I don’t know take pills so she can sleep cry her eyes out till she sleeps. I don’t know what I can do to like I don’t know stop her from doing all this.
The next day wasn’t really any better. She signs on and all I read was this long away message that covered up almost the entire chat box and like I just didn’t know what to do. certainly I tried to maybe get her to stop hurting herself like this and I did try to make her feel better but its useless. Shes taught me something new actually. Sometimes in life there are things that aren’t really worth giving up. this girl stuck so hard to her words to being with her boyfriend who keeps hurting her before but now shes all fine. I don’t know what to make of that but that is some power ive never seen before. Love doesn’t have a definition at all. There are no statistical chart or a hard number of probable chances in love. Love has its own math. A math that cant be solved just like the ever lasting digits of pie. It can go infinitely high or it can rise up for a few moments and die down. That’s love. Not even the longest living person can find out what love is. Even the words like forever, everlasting, no end (well all of them are the same) can really like describe love. But right now, I am happy she finally settle down. For these past like 2 to 3 days maybe, I don’t know but I felt kind of destroyed at times when I talk to her. Yeah she doesn’t really talk that much but maybe one sad little word makes me see how she is right now. To be for real I don’t want her to cry anymore, to feel this loneliness anymore, or like just feel so sad that she can’t eat or sleep right. She doesn’t deserve this at all. And I want that guy to know that if he does put her through that again, I’ll definitely destroy you. Its not my problem to intervene but really don’t fuck up, its not like you can find a girl like her in this kind of world.
Now I am happy for her. I’m happy she finally settle things down, finally shes found some peace and quiet in her love life. I did make that promise to you so I’ll stick with you till well when time comes. You’ll understand it soon when what I meant when time comes. Well when you’re older atleast. But for now, be happy, stop being so sad inside, and at least talk to me more. All I see are smileys and nothing else, I don’t think that tells me much of anything that happens in youre life, does it? Anyways, stay safe and stay happy, you know ill always be here for you. Now its time for me to find the one girl out there so that maybe I can feel what it is to be in love again, for sure I don’t sound desperate but I know its going to be one hell of an adventure.
- Kevin Mei
I dedicate this to those girls who have never found tru love.
sometimes i wonder about what youre thinking and how youre always just hurting yourself with all this. youre young and sweet, but i dont know what you have become. sure youre still that sweet girl as i can remember but you have become like love drunk really. i dont know what it really is girl but i miss the old you. i used to remember you as a girl that maybe had hope and smiled atleast when i was here to maybe talk you through things that you always lost hope in. well this is what things are really about.
i want you to look deep into yourself and really think about what youre doing. seriously when did you start to beg for love that isnt even worth it anymore. i want to know what youre thinking girl. seriously. please change for yourself really please? thats the only think i want you to really just look into yourself about. i cant change you from this because its your life and youre love. but seriously i hate to hear it from you being so hurt in the heart and confused in the mind. im only here to try and help you but i dont know whats going on anymore, all you seem to do now is never really talk to me nor do you ever even try to talk to me about these things. sigh. think about this. im sure oyu know who you are.
-soulReal
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wave?
~The Wave~
7/7 of year 2010. Went to a college orientation to set up my college stuff that day. It wasn’t until about 5 I start to head back to Brooklyn and went to some weird place that they call 105. I was standing around like usual no one to play against but who cares, I sucked in that sport that was played there anyways. So yeah like I was saying I was just standing there holding some weird basketball and like out of no where I saw this girl. Yeah she was pretty and all and she did look familiar, only thing is I didn’t know what he name was.
The wave as I can call it. Its not something so special nor was it something really low in life, but it was a cool wave, a friendly like one. Anyways she waved and I waved back and smiled, wait did she smile yeah she smiled. Moving on. I over heard her saying do you want to play doubles with two chicks that I knew. It was a pretty intense game with these two but I just wondered who the other girl that was with this girl that waved at me was. She was a lot darker than me, scary, and she seemed familiar. Well a few minutes went by and I found out that was this girl that I talked to a lot named Jennifer. Well we don’t talk anymore but its cool. The girl that waved at me she played this sport handball pretty well. She was more pro than me at that time I guess. Weird thing was, she was wearing flip flops and short shorts? I cannot remember. Therefore, I started to play a little bit but I failed a lot in the games. Played about 2 quick games though it was about 21 point each game. This sport seemed so new to me because I have practiced it for months and it was getting boring in the first place which is why I quit. Sides I’m growing up, pointless hitting a ball to the wall. So I just went ahead and did some nice soccer moves with a basketball. No one really can do that stuff like me unless you’re Mexican. Not to be racist but oh wells.
So after I did those things I just spun the basketball on my finger and noticed the cute girl that waved at me like holding her nose. I thought she was laughing or something then I was like what the hell are those people standing around her for. That was when I noticed she was having a nose bleed. Now literally it was hot so a nose bleed is inevitable when it comes to the heat. When I gave her some tissues I asked if she was okay and she was like yes, I suppose she thanked me for the tissues. Can’t remember again. Then I asked how she get her nose to bleed. Now this is really weird. She got hit by the ball on her nose. Now tell me this, out of all the chances of winning the lottery, how can she get hit by the ball just like that? Now I think its impossible because if she was standing in the back I don’t think it would happen in the front I know you don’t turn around after you serve the ball so did the wall like throw the ball at her? Well I didn’t ask I just laughed a little and went back to asking her if she was okay. She looked like Rudolf the red nose reindeer. Cute but yet funny. I left after, sorry for not saying bye.
Yeah I don’t want to be a stalker but I remember your name from somewhere in the march month and asked this girl what your name was. Hey you cant blame me for losing my memory on this I haven’t seen you for months. Joey Ren. Unknown everything but your name. So I facebooked her and found her and added her. We talked quite a bit until we both agreed that this facebook conversation is a hassle going back and forth. So we started to aim each other. She is well under training for this duken donut position. She serves donuts and drinks? Well I would say what a waste of a summer but who cares a job is a job, she has a good chance of getting in after the summer. Worth the training and effort. So we started to talk more and more but my internet was crappy. We talked about fat people rolling on the floor from picking up something, fat obese women pictures that made me puke(literally), how she was cute and how I was random, but hey atleast we are talking a lot. She likes this drink called taro bubble tea. I never really tasted it before the only drink that I would get is regular bubble tea and water all the way. She is also this cute little stalker I guess, I mean she like wanted to get my webpage called tumblr and stalk me when I have nothing there. She is also born on a holiday too. Passed not too long ago her birthday, july 4th. Mine too though its January 1st. cool stuff. She is pretty cool if you ask me. Wants to get better in pool but is broke because of the stupid training she has to do, but don’t worry a guy name Kevin will help you find a job this summer. Shes lazy like me too. She said I was nice, I wonder if its true. But that really it. The conversation went pretty well with this girl. From what I see, she’s nice, funny, open( im not sure), and in my point of view she has a nice personality. Though she is busy on her little tumblr all the time ranting about things I sure hope she enjoyed this article. Happened all because of a wave.
- Kevin Mei
I wonder, what does life even mean? like seriously? anyone that can awnser that ill give a cookie to LOL ask away yo. even though i dont have that many people i “follow” ._.
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Mistakes are painful, but as time goes by it becomes a collection of experiences called lessons.
(via xheyitscambria)
i guess you can say thats true =D
Source: ohjust-because
Link reblogged from Once Upon A Time,
Dear Vivian , I have something to confess ♥: I hate that feeling when ... →
You argue with one of the people in your group of friends . and she/he happens to be very like-able, adorable , innocent , outgoing and pretty . basically , the popular one that “supposingly” keeps the group ongoing and when you and him/her argue , then the group suddenly doesn’t talk to you ….
who knows? =) welcome to life.
Source: obliviouslove
Best thing about having a good boyfriend.
- Goodmorning text messages
- Late night phone calls.
- Falling asleep on the phone.
- “Babe, guess what?”. “What?”. “I love you”. (everyone does it)
- I miss you/I love you random phone calls.
- Being grabbed by the waist.
- Kisses, especially on the forehead.
- 127817392 photos together.
- You guys fight, you walk away .. he comes back for you.
- He’s always there for you, through thick & thin.
- He wouldnt give up on you no matter what.
- When problems come up, he is there to sit with you to fix it.
i dont know…
hmm how should i start this. i doubt it was fate, i doubt it was destiny, but maybe im choosing what it should be this time. thing about meeting you was hmm it wasnt weird and it wasnt too alluring but it was enough to catch my attention with you. at times i wonder, are you really like her? but in a way, the way you talk to me before i got this feeling it was well pretty good. it atleast made me happy and that you acknowledged me. though i don tknow whats going on now i really hope something turns out in my favor. yeah thats right, i wanna be with you, but i dont know what you feel. i just want to be there for you, hold you so that you wont even bother thinking about falling too deep, treasure the imperfections you have, kiss those lips of yours and love you for who you are. i might sound fruity but who cares. all i care now is you.
